erin kelly

I don’t think I have ever been this mad at certain people before. How can we go to school together for so long and hang out all the time to now. I understand that we used to see each other every day so that of course helped the matter. I was so scared that this would happen after we left lakeshore. Well it came true so what the hell are we suppose to do now. Even though its summer now it just feels like all of you guys are still away at school. either at butler or michigan state or in chicago. you guys have been home for what over a MONTH now and I only have seen kelly, anna and elizabeth once. what happened to all of us still being friends after high school?! HUH WHAT THE HELL. I don’t know what I ever did to ella. I try texting her but she never will answer me. I haven’t seen her or talked to her since new years so I can’t imagine that I ever did anything to her. anna, I don’t know what is going on I know that your mom had surgery and Im sorry for that. you could have told me. I am ALWAYS the one that has to text you and ask if you want to hang out then it never happens. you could text me too though, phones go both ways. as for another one of you, I don’t want to name you because you have hurt me the most. all you do is hang out with him or work YOU HAVE FUCKING FRIENDS YOU KNOW. I get that you have changed because everyone who sees you now says that but whatever have fun drinking, smoking whatever, having sex and who knows what else you are doing. I wouldn’t know because you don’t ever talk to me anymore. when I saw you at family video a couple nights ago it literally made me want to cry. I ACTUALLY GAVE A DAMN ABOUT YOU. YOU WERE MY FRIEND. I LOVED YOU. WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO YOU. I guess that you didn’t really care because if you did then you would care like I do. you would try texting all of us all the time to hang out even though you know they will probably say no. you wouldn’t have given up. you would still try all the time like I do. why did you give up? I need to know. I need to know why you don’t care about having any friends anymore. It breaks my heart to know that we are falling apart. I mean do any of you guys care that you don’t ever do anything with any of us anymore? If you don’t care then you guys weren’t the people I thought you were. and that makes me sad. and rachel stark. I have known you just this year and Im so glad that I got to know you. yet you are SO hard to get to text back or trying to get you to hang out. you always say yeah we need to do something next week! never happens. I miss you. I miss talking to you. I feel like Im the only one that cares anymore and thats not fair. you guys should all care too. but you don’t. I can’t even remember the last time I hung out with any of you. I want us to all be friends still. IM JUST SO MAD NOW. everyone is busy but that is no reason to not try getting people together to hang out. people do it all the time. its not a crazy thing. I just fucking miss all of you. everyday. I don’t get why Im the only one that cares anymore. I wish I could go back and relive one day at lakeshore again just to see you guys again and what it was like when we were all friends still. I always thought that you fight for what is worth fighting for. I don’t want to give up. I won’t. I just wish you guys would try just a little. to show that you actually still care. please. 

holding-back-my-tears:

Why am I never good enough?! With anything I do. It fucking sucks!